Pretending Along

Hello Blog, long time no see.

What do I want... Umm... Well, I guess I was just wondering how you've been?

Well, I suppose you're right, I would know the answer to that if I'd kept in touch...

Look, it's not that I wanted to end our relationship, things just got complicated. You always new that my work had to come first at this point in my life...

Yes, I know that's not how I acted before, but for the first two years the job just wasn't as time consuming; I was able to create some downtime at the office that I could dedicate to us. But things changed around this time last year...

Well for one, I've been on the road for almost a year, and a long distance relationship is tough...

OK point taken, you aren't really bound to any particular spatial position. I've just always thought of you as a DC blog...

Maybe you're right, maybe that is bullshit and it is just my fear of commitment talking. I know we've had a sort of on-again, off-again relationship. And when I rekindled it last March, I really did have hopes that it would be for good, but it just got too difficult. I couldn't dedicate enough time to you, not the amount of time that you deserve.

No, no, no, I'm not saying you're too demanding; you've always given me as much space as I wanted...

No there isn't anyone else. I've been traveling and working 16 hour days for almost a year. What do you think I just walk into a bar in some crappy Mid Atlantic town, sit down and start chatting up a blog? Come on, you know me, that's not how I spend my time...

That doesn't count, it was a discussion board. And besides, it was totally work related; I was looking for help with SQL server.

I will not be made to feel guilty about a totally professional encounter with a tech support message board; you and I hadn't seen each other in months. Look, I didn't come here to fight.

Well, I’m sorry my friends stopped visiting--

Yes I do think it is appropriate to call them “my” friends, they were “my” friends before they were “our” friends. What would you have said to them anyway, “How’s Chris, I hear he’s in Boston these days. Heard any good pirate jokes lately? Remember how Chris really loved those pirate jokes?” “Remember that time Chris wrote a 2000-word stream-of-conscious, diatribe about work stress and writers block? He sure is a wacky guy.”

Don’t get defensive, I’m not calling you uninteresting, it’s just likely that you wouldn’t have had anything to talk to them about.

I meant it when I said I’m not here to argue. I… I want to try again. I think I’ve changed. Changed for the better. I think things could be different this time. I’ll give you the time you need; we can get back in touch with the old friends. It won’t be just like it was in the beginning; we’re both a bit older. The twice-a-day, clandestine, frenzied, hour-long sessions at the office are a thing of the past, but that’s par for the course; it’s just how relationships progress.

So, what do you say?

Posted by cs at January 18, 2006 10:04 AM